*charisma*
05-18-2009, 11:11 PM
salams,
i hope ur ll well inshallah, i need to write this post coz am kinda low and depressed, hope u ppl can help Inshallah.
THe thing is i have been feelin really low, unhappy and i dont feel connected wid Allah SWT and islam itself.
I feel that when i pray, i dont feel anyfin, no proper peace, i cry abt it but i feel faith for me just gives me a headache.tauba, but am just so angry, i dont feel like praying, i feel like ma wishes/ dreams aint goiing to happen.
ive had counseling, coz i seem to have problems wid maself, self esteem, confidence and had issue wid ma mates, i.e. insecurity/ jealously etc,,,
i wish for so much and it feels like i aint gettin what i wish and dream for. i feel like ma friends will get the perfect husbands, and that wishes may come true but me, i dont feel like its going to happe for me, the way i want it.... i.e.e marriage, ma future, etc.
i want good for ma friends, but i cant feel upset and insecure abt maself, and take it out on God,
Why does life feel like this, they say time will tell and be paient but its hard,feels like everyone gets what they want.. and the fingd i like, but me i feel in life, god forbid, that i might have to settle iwd somefin i dont like,,,,,
am tired of being insecure, Im honestly fed up and dont care about anyfin, becuase having feelings/hopes/dreams hurt when they dont come, whats thepoint of caring abt having a religious decent person as a husband, whats the point of gettin married,its more likely everyone gets what they want except me, Allah hu alim, but i was so angry and upset last night, and my mentality to things aint good on islam, marriage, friendship... just dont cre
Allah SWT help me Inshallah.Ameen
plz help
Jazakallah khair
i hope ur ll well inshallah, i need to write this post coz am kinda low and depressed, hope u ppl can help Inshallah.
THe thing is i have been feelin really low, unhappy and i dont feel connected wid Allah SWT and islam itself.
I feel that when i pray, i dont feel anyfin, no proper peace, i cry abt it but i feel faith for me just gives me a headache.tauba, but am just so angry, i dont feel like praying, i feel like ma wishes/ dreams aint goiing to happen.
ive had counseling, coz i seem to have problems wid maself, self esteem, confidence and had issue wid ma mates, i.e. insecurity/ jealously etc,,,
i wish for so much and it feels like i aint gettin what i wish and dream for. i feel like ma friends will get the perfect husbands, and that wishes may come true but me, i dont feel like its going to happe for me, the way i want it.... i.e.e marriage, ma future, etc.
i want good for ma friends, but i cant feel upset and insecure abt maself, and take it out on God,
Why does life feel like this, they say time will tell and be paient but its hard,feels like everyone gets what they want.. and the fingd i like, but me i feel in life, god forbid, that i might have to settle iwd somefin i dont like,,,,,
am tired of being insecure, Im honestly fed up and dont care about anyfin, becuase having feelings/hopes/dreams hurt when they dont come, whats thepoint of caring abt having a religious decent person as a husband, whats the point of gettin married,its more likely everyone gets what they want except me, Allah hu alim, but i was so angry and upset last night, and my mentality to things aint good on islam, marriage, friendship... just dont cre
Allah SWT help me Inshallah.Ameen
plz help
Jazakallah khair