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Ive never felt so lost in my life

Salam brothers and sisters,
I know that many of us muslims have troubles in their lives, and I know that I am only one of many, here is my story...
when i was in high school, life was very simple, im sure many can relate. I am muslim, and so is my family, however they do not follow any of the instructions given by Allah. they do not pray, fast etc. I am the only one in my family who does so. in high school i was not religious. I did not have anyone to teach me the right path.
things were going well, i got my drivers license, i got my first job and i got accepted into a great university. my freshmen year of college I met so many muslims, and my roomate was muslim, and he slowly taught me about Islam. I began to pray and fast and keep Allah in my mind. things were going even better now because I had gained knowledge of Islam. my second year of college I met a girl who was the only one with my nationality, and she was also muslim. we started talking (I know this is forbidden). it felt like i found the perfect girl, the perfect freinds and the perfect school. I even found a well paying job while taking classes.
during the summer of 2010, the girl i had met, didnt like me...but i moved on. but still to this day I pray that she realizes how much i love her. ( I know..its bad). things got even worse when on the first day of Ramadan, I found out that I was expelled from the university...just for forging one signature. I do not blame the school..i can only blame myself.
once i was out of college, I couldnt see my freinds, or the girl i loved. the student loans started coming back (I know loans are haram, but i could not find any other way to pay for school).
I am trying to find a job, but it seems like no one is hiring me. I cannot transfer to a different school until i pay 4,000 dollars for a summer course I took. I dont have the money for that, and im working at my fathers store which makes just enough for me to pay the loan monthly.
it astounds me to see what happened to my life. I went from good to terrible in just months. and now I keep my faith in Allah even more. no matter what happens I keep my faith in him.

however right now, i just feel lost and hopeless, and trying my best to weather the storm without doing harm to myself.please make dua for me if you can, and use this to realize how important school and your muslim brothers and sisters are to your life. thank you so much for reading.
Jazakallah Khayran