I'm not a revert but I feel like an alien amongst Muslims

I remember a sheik came to my university to give a lecture and afterwards I attempted to ask him, with all the talk of bettering the Ummah, how come I dont feel like a part of it.

I say attempted because... well... lets just say whoever said boys dont cry lied through their teeth lol.

It's weird because I feel more like a part of the Ummah alone than I do in a group. I wasnt really religious until college and grew up in a regular Paki family. I guess that long period of cutoff from Islam is why I may feel alien huh?


But This isnt because I view myself as too sinful or anything like that.

In Jumah I refuse to sit near the front because I dont feel like I belong there. And for some reason, even though I feel alien, the thought of meeting Muslims is fascinating but for petes sake I grew up among them...

What gives people? Take a stab or roll your eyes and move onto the next advice thread! :D