I have been many thing is the name of religion. I find nothing to compare to Islam. Yet i am plagued by western culture, I have many problems hoping Allah can help me see the path. I am a current drug addict, I cannot live without alcohol, cannabis and nictotine. I have a history of using psychedelics, using crystal methaphetamine and whatever benzo/opiates. I need help i have ordered the free quran translation, yet my life feels as it is going to end. Everytimei get high that i have terrible feelings i am dishonoring allah and out of nowhere nasheeds i heard 5 years ago would play in my head so loud. I really need information, i need group support and actual; followers of the faith to keep me from turning my back opn the truth. Islam Holds the key to untouched literature and discipline. At the moment i am still drinking a 6 pack. I really need help. I realize that text says when alcohol is consumed that you are not Muslim for two months. At the time i NEED to learn arabic, the hadith, and Qu'ran. Any and all information you have is appreciated. I live in San Jose. Ca. if anyone is local that can help my soul be saved from the ultimate pearls of western society, mass media, and false idols. I await patiently for my brothers and sisters to guide me along the righteous true path!